Cellular memory is the most primal construct of who we are. Every memory is held in your body. Everything you have ever seen or learned has a cellular imprint. Old hurts, both physical and emotional, are stored in your cells. Past memories can be activated in the present by circumstances, sounds, smells, etc. As we clear past hurts, fears, shame and anger, we can begin to live in the now. The only thing we can do about the past is to clean it up. Our aliveness is in the present moment. As we clear up our history, we begin to live fully in the present, AND create a better future for our children.
When I first began writing my book, it was quite different from what it is today. Although very cathartic and healing, I seemed to be sick with some physical condition all the time. Even certain life situations would trigger physical responses in me that I could not explain. I began to have panic attacks and my anxiety level would increase exponentially when I would write about a stressful time in the book.
It wasn’t until I was researching my family history (because I was adopted) and was looking at the notes from my foster home caseworker that I noticed something unusual.
I had obtained copies of my mother’s medical records. She had a complete mental and emotional breakdown when I was born. It had been brewing for a long time, and she had already lost some of her children to death, and to Social Services. She was sent to a Mental Hospital in the next state over from where I had been placed in foster care.
It seems when I was about nine months old I started having severe seizures in my crib every day at the same time. They would last about fifteen minutes. Back in those days they were described as “fits”. I eventually broke the rail of my crib. After six weeks, the seizures completely stopped, and by the time the State authorized a visit to the doctor, they could find nothing physically wrong with me.
As I read my mother’s mental health records, I discovered something that took me aback. At the same time I was having “fits” in my crib she was having a new up and coming treatment for mental disorders called “electroshock therapy”. The therapy causes major seizures in the patient. It was thought at the time to “re-trigger” the brain’s responses to stimuli to help treat mental illness.
You see, my mother was in a state mental facility 250 miles and a state away from where I was located at the time.
As time went on, I have experienced other cellular connections and shifts within my body, and will talk about those as my blog permits.
Right now, I would like to ask you if you have ever experienced a cellular shift in your body? It can present itself as tingling, feeling almost like you’re having a hot flash or excessive temperature change in your body for seemingly no reason, or just a sense that something has just created a major shift in your belief system.